Warning: Depressing Post Ahead
No, seriously... if you're one of those people who worries about me and stuff, you might just want to skip this one.
See, it's November, and therefore I'm well entrenched into my Seasonal Affective Disorder. I should have a bad case of the blues until, oh, about March or so. And aside from that, things have just been pretty rough lately. I've had some "up" days, some "up" events, but for the most part there's a lot of down right now. Tonight, for instance. It's past midnight. For various, disturbing reasons I only got a few hours' sleep last night. Yet I sit here in the lab, blogging and surfing, fighting back the yawns.
Because I absolutely do not want to go home.
I don't know why. Or rather, I have an idea or two but I recognize how flippin' crazy they are and so I'd rather not go into them. Suffice it to say, I know I will not rest well there. I won't rest well anywhere, alone, and I have nowhere to go that I'm not alone. Not tonight. It's nights like these I would gladly drive to San Antonio, to Temple, to Killeen, to anywhere that I could show up on someone's doorstep, hold out my arms, and be taken in. But it's not to be. I have responsibilities. I have a meeting at work tomorrow. I have school projects. I have people who are counting on me to get things done. I have to pray that I can stay awake long enough to drive home. If I could take tomorrow off I would, and then maybe take a short nap, then jump in the van and just go. There has to be somewhere... someone... somehow... to take this feeling away and make things feel right.
Sing me a rainbow, Josie
Roll me a song
Just tonight, make it right,
'Cause it's been wrong for oh so long
There's lots of shades of darkness, Josie, deep inside a man
So sing me a rainbow if you can
See, it's November, and therefore I'm well entrenched into my Seasonal Affective Disorder. I should have a bad case of the blues until, oh, about March or so. And aside from that, things have just been pretty rough lately. I've had some "up" days, some "up" events, but for the most part there's a lot of down right now. Tonight, for instance. It's past midnight. For various, disturbing reasons I only got a few hours' sleep last night. Yet I sit here in the lab, blogging and surfing, fighting back the yawns.
Because I absolutely do not want to go home.
I don't know why. Or rather, I have an idea or two but I recognize how flippin' crazy they are and so I'd rather not go into them. Suffice it to say, I know I will not rest well there. I won't rest well anywhere, alone, and I have nowhere to go that I'm not alone. Not tonight. It's nights like these I would gladly drive to San Antonio, to Temple, to Killeen, to anywhere that I could show up on someone's doorstep, hold out my arms, and be taken in. But it's not to be. I have responsibilities. I have a meeting at work tomorrow. I have school projects. I have people who are counting on me to get things done. I have to pray that I can stay awake long enough to drive home. If I could take tomorrow off I would, and then maybe take a short nap, then jump in the van and just go. There has to be somewhere... someone... somehow... to take this feeling away and make things feel right.
Sing me a rainbow, Josie
Roll me a song
Just tonight, make it right,
'Cause it's been wrong for oh so long
There's lots of shades of darkness, Josie, deep inside a man
So sing me a rainbow if you can
posted by SaraSmile | 10:13 PM
3 Comments:
I was just listening to some of my mp3's as I was reading your blog and this song came up. The song is called "Cool Night" and it's by Paul Davis.
Hopefully this will cheer you up and that there's someone out there who cares heaps about you.
--
"Cool Night"
I sometimes wonder why all the flowers have to die
I dream about you and now summer's come and gone
And the nights they seem so long
Come on over tonight, come on over
CHORUS:
It's gonna be a cool night
Just let me hold you by the firelight
If it don't feel right, you can go
Oh, when the cool night
Brings back memories of a good life
When this love was not so old
I won't talk about the past
How love's supposed to last forever
And you, don't have to take a stand, lay out any plans
Come on over tonight, come on over
CHORUS
Come on over tonight, come on over
It's gonna be a cool night
Just let me hold you by the firelight
If it don't feel right you can go
(Repeat and fade)
On a cool night, let me hold you
On a cool, just let me hold you by the firelight
If it don't feel right you can go
--
The key part is you coming over and letting someone hold you .. we all can use a little hugging to make things better and you will always know that my arms are open to you when you need them! There are times like this when I wish I could reach out and hug you silly!
*giggles* Too late, I'm already silly!!!
Jay, you just have no clue how precious you are to me, do you? Thank you for being you.
*smiles* You're always welcome Sara .. you know that.
You know what you mean to me as well hun!
Post a Comment
<< Home