Already Gone
"So often times it happens that we live our lives in chains, and we never even know we had the key."
Ah, what wonderful songwriters we have in Jack Tempchin and Robb Strandlund (who?) and what a memorable singer in my dear Glenn Frey. (My mother-in-law and I, BTW, are having a double wedding, she to Glenn and me to Don. Now if only the men in question knew it...)
It struck me this morning that "already gone" pretty much described my senior year in high school. The topic came up in a random way, as I was thinking about a guy I knew in high school who I more or less blew off. Not intentionally - I honestly don't think I realized until pretty late in the game, that he was even interested in me that way. And that's where I realized the whole already-gone connection. See, by senior year I had made the realization that, for better or for worse, I was never going to see most of these people again. With the career I had originally chosen, and the schools I was considering, it just wasn't likely. So I was very outwardly-focused. Focused on getting ready to go away to college (my closest option was still an 8 hour drive), focused on the older, already-out-of-school guys that I was sorta kinda quietly seeing. Focused on enjoying the time I had left, with the school and theater friends that I knew I was really going to miss. It wasn't a time to build new ties to where I was, it was a time to transition to where I was going to be. So no, I never gave a minute's thought to actually dating any guy in my class, not just Dan, who really was a nice guy.
I sure hope he knows that. I hope he realizes that this would have been one of the cases where, had we ever actually discussed the situation, "It's not you, it's me" would have been completely true.
It's also where I am now. Some of you know all about the change I'm planning, and for others I guess this sounds really cryptic and odd LOL but basically, I'm planning a major transition, and so the rest of the time between now and then is basically focused on getting my ducks in a row for that, tying up loose ends, and figuring out what is important for me now, and what is just dead weight that needs cutting. But me, I'm already gone. And I'm feeling strong.
Ah, what wonderful songwriters we have in Jack Tempchin and Robb Strandlund (who?) and what a memorable singer in my dear Glenn Frey. (My mother-in-law and I, BTW, are having a double wedding, she to Glenn and me to Don. Now if only the men in question knew it...)
It struck me this morning that "already gone" pretty much described my senior year in high school. The topic came up in a random way, as I was thinking about a guy I knew in high school who I more or less blew off. Not intentionally - I honestly don't think I realized until pretty late in the game, that he was even interested in me that way. And that's where I realized the whole already-gone connection. See, by senior year I had made the realization that, for better or for worse, I was never going to see most of these people again. With the career I had originally chosen, and the schools I was considering, it just wasn't likely. So I was very outwardly-focused. Focused on getting ready to go away to college (my closest option was still an 8 hour drive), focused on the older, already-out-of-school guys that I was sorta kinda quietly seeing. Focused on enjoying the time I had left, with the school and theater friends that I knew I was really going to miss. It wasn't a time to build new ties to where I was, it was a time to transition to where I was going to be. So no, I never gave a minute's thought to actually dating any guy in my class, not just Dan, who really was a nice guy.
I sure hope he knows that. I hope he realizes that this would have been one of the cases where, had we ever actually discussed the situation, "It's not you, it's me" would have been completely true.
It's also where I am now. Some of you know all about the change I'm planning, and for others I guess this sounds really cryptic and odd LOL but basically, I'm planning a major transition, and so the rest of the time between now and then is basically focused on getting my ducks in a row for that, tying up loose ends, and figuring out what is important for me now, and what is just dead weight that needs cutting. But me, I'm already gone. And I'm feeling strong.
posted by SaraSmile | 10:26 AM
3 Comments:
Hi. This is Jack Tempchin. Thanks for mentioning my song on your blog.
Wow... if that's really you, HOW COOL!!! Great song, it's one of my favorites, and (obviously) one that strikes a chord. I'm sure I'm not the only one!
WHOAH!!! Very very cool. I think you got White Gramma's luck. Next thing you know, you'll be at an Eagles concert with backstage passes, crew jackets and . . . well . . . who knows??????
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